Just a Fangirl

Tuesday, 31 January 2012

PMS - for the ladies.

I have always thought that PMS was just cramps and temper...

...But now I understand that that was a major misunderstanding.

So, after doing my research, I discovered so many things that I thought was interesting. Ladies, this post is especially made to share with you all the data that I found.

Wahaha, this date is Shizuo's birthdate. He's also one of my "Watashi no Ai"s in the series so of course I'm gonna have to do something as a tribute to him.

Oh, but then there's also the International Women's day coming up in March. Hmm...

I know! Why not mash the two together! ( 0 3 0)

And so, with that being said, here is what was created by moi:

(Click picture to enlarge)

Yes, I know (s)he's a bit off character. BUT WHATEVER!

At least it turned out better than the Kid!Shizuo I drew.

The photo won't rotate..! T^T

Making the above was a trip filled will a whole lot of bumps on the road. See that small circle-oval thing under his lips, yeah well, the colour pencil lead broke right there and I had to improvise since it wouldn't rub off. And then there's smudges all over the damn page. It was an off day for me - the camera wasn't helping much either. (= A = )

WHY IS MY FAVOURITE CHARA SO HARD TO DRAW! TAT /sobs

Anyways.

Happy Birthday Shizuo! I love you. (´ ▽｀).。ｏ♡

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Friday, 27 January 2012

Spending time away..

I'm off to spend the weekend+today at my grandmother's. I promised her I'd visit her on Thursday, but something came up (+me moping around).

I guess it's best to spend some time away from the net. Get my mind off the unfortunate experience.

Plus, I had a dream about her the past Wednesday. Maybe my subconscious self wants to see her so it sends me a message.

And then there's the opportunity to talk to her about what happened when the Japs came to Malaysia. Apparently, she remembers most things.

So... bye? ( ・_・)ノ

T_T

I told my mother about the scam. She took it well - surprisingly. While I, didn't.

The guilt I felt was overwhelming. The fact that I made my mother lose such an amount of money. Money that could be used to fund her and the family's living expenses.

She was mellow about it. But I felt that I deserved something as punishment. So, my subconscious self sabotaged me, torturing me and my thoughts and made me suffer. Nah, I'm just being dramatic. Basically, I just strangled myself with words like "YOU'RE AN IDIOT".

She said that we'll have to report to the minister of something something.

And all I said was Okay.

This scam thing is the worst thing anyone ever did to me. I'm soft! I'll believe most things you say. So don't lie to me! \( > A < )/

I don't have an appetite, my stomach feels so sick, my heart feels as if it's chained to a 50kg weight. I can't do much anymore and I keep getting stuck in a daze.

Tasukete... （ｉ^ｉ）

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Thursday, 26 January 2012

Down in the Dumps...

Moped around all day today - well mostly. I'm just so bummed out about the scam I've fallen for. The disappointment is more than my heart could take.

And the worse part is that it wasn't my money that got robbed but my mother's. I would've mind less if I was the only one involved. But tricking me and my mother? Crushing the hopes of a kid? That's just crossing the line. How heartless can you get?

Allow me to be dramatic for this post, please. That's the only way I'll get by. =_=

I don't know what to do anymore. Even KanzentaiCell's cover of Tsukema Tsukeru wasn't enough to lift my spirits up. Neither did Na-chan from UtaPri. I couldn't even move on to watching the second ep of the series. +_+

Usually when my heart is burdened, I lie down on a bed - any bed - and cover my head with a pillow. Then, I'll drift into sleep. It may take two hours, it may take 15 minutes... but when I wake up, I'll have to face my troubles head on. And if I feel as if I'm not ready, I would always lie back down and close my eyes.. and just escape everything.

The thing that frustrates me more than actually being scammed is that I actually suspected something. I knew something was up. But I denied my senses. I refused to believe in my intuition. I guess a woman(?)'s intuition is never wrong afterall - and this is what I get for doubting that.

I guess I'm just being tested. C'est la vie, I guess?

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AFKL SCAM.

AFKL - Anime Fiesta Kuala Lumpur. The biggest piece of BS I have ever heard of.

AND YET I STILL FALL FOR IT. GARRGGGHH! (╯`Д´）╯︵ ┻━┻

My mother bought me three of the Superpass-es as thanks for helping her transcribe her audio file thingy. Cost her RM158 in total (plus the shipping fees).

I was so excited. My heart was fluttering, and my eyes were sparkling for three days straight. But for some reason... something didn't feel quite right.

Now, from the beginning, I had suspicious feelings towards this event. With it's outrageous claims about bringing Hatsune Miku and whatnot, it didn't seem very realistic... However, I brushed the suspicions away.

I was never interested in the Miku concert because although I am a vocaloid fan, I'm not very much into concerts. That's why I didn't pay attention to the ticket prices for the concert. The only thing I did pay attention to was to the Superpass.

What attracted me to the event was the fact that they were using 4 halls at the Kuala Lumpur Convention Center (KLCC). That made me very much excited, because I went to last year's Comic Fiesta which had 2 halls. Imagine what it would be like with double of that?!

And so, I was blinded by their false claim.

I believed. I hoped and held faith. But now... my dreams... everything...crushed.

Fck you, scammers. FCK YOU. 凸(｀⌒´メ)凸

For more information about the scam thing, here are a few sites:

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Wednesday, 25 January 2012

Birthday Scenario - APH style!

Found this really awesome birthday scenario from here.
Behold!

(Source: Link)

So apparently, based on the above scenarios, my birthday tells me that I am planning world domination with none other than this guy!:

Cute and fuzzy... >w<

Don't underestimate Tino, guys. He's a pretty badass country that could very much beat your sorry ass if he wanted to. >D

Hot and deadly.. (*¬*)

(Source: Link)

The world shall be ours in no time! Muahhaha! ψ(｀∇´)ψ

I did a bunch of other people's birthday too. For example, Fafrina-chan is apparently the slave of Eygypt (0_0) and Musheeroom is in fact, the sibling of Romano! So... Italy?

But there's one birthday that I find myself really envious of... and that, would be my youngest sister. According to the birthday scenario chart-thing above, my little sister is married to ....PRUSSIA.

I will never accept this! ((o(;△;)o))

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