Day 1: Draw a picture of yourself

Here's what I doodled:

Alright, so it's not a realistic portrait, but hey, it gives you a clue of what I look like. I used to have really long, wavy hair, but I cut it earlier this year as a symbol of letting go of what happened in the past - that I soon regret doing. So now, I have shoulder-length hair that's far more straighter than it had been last time. 


As you can see, my face is round, and my hair is tied into a ponytail - which is my usual hairdo (see, I'm no good at hair styling) when at home. I wear a hijab outside, though. 

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Holidays are ending :[

The new semester's going to begin this Monday. I'm quite crestfallen that it's ending too quickly, but I'm anxious to begin again - this time, I'm determined to not speak to anyone once the teacher starts talking. That means you too, Fafrina. ( = 3 = )


Hey, desperate times calls for desperate measures. I'm not very good at splitting my already short attention span, so it's important I make sure I understand each subject.


My grandparents are in the house - they're here to look after me and my sister since my mom got a new job and the maid's gone. I'm feeling a bit guilty for neglecting my duties to entertain their time, but what can I do? I'm getting more and more busy each passing day as I cram all sorts of info into my brain.


Yes, I'm finally starting to follow my study schedule. I'm hoping with time and great discipline, I would be able to catch up to where the smart students are. That also means you too, Fafrina. Musheeroom, if you're reading, I'm taking up your mom's challenge at being your competition in the academics field. I'll prove to be a potent opponent, I'll make sure of that so that one day, we could be sent of to Japan on the school exchange program.


Studying proves to be much easier when there's nothing to distract or pressure me. I dislike when people poke and force me to go read a book, so when I have the freedom of choice to study by my own will, it's much less of a burden. Also, a clean environment helps a lot.


Speaking of cleaning, I'm almost done with the cleaning of my room - which is quiet a huge surprise. Thanks to new storage space, I'm able to keep all my prized possessions without having it clutter my room.


Also! I'm taking up the Drawing Challenge from here.

Here's Day 1.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

I AM SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING. BLRUGAKJSDLK.

Now I know that it has been waaaaaay more than nine days since I did the 10 day challenge, but hey. I warned you that I might not complete it in one go. *shrugs*

Dug around my gif folders and here is what I found:

Don't. Ask.

 To sum it all up in words, my life is unusual. It is quirky, it is weird. But it is mine.

AND SO. I SHALL LEAVE NOW. GOODBYE.

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Day Eight: Three turn ons.

Only three..? =A=

Nah, just kiddin'

1) Suits and ties

This is one is relevant to all of the female population's liking - at least, most. It is as they say, "A fine suit to women is what lingerie is to men". And ties, goodness me, the ties. They're like discreet leaches, don't you know? I've always wanted to pull a guy by his tie... WHICH, I will probably attempt to do someday to my future husband. Oh, how I pity the unlucky man to get stuck with me. ( -  3  -)

2) A nice scent

I love anyone who smells nice. This also applies to breaths. As for perfumes and cologne, I'd prefer if it's not overdone. But nothing beats the smell of clean laundry and/or aftershave.

3) Smiles

Smiling lifts your face and brightens others' day. But a smile is not limited to a grin, no. There are lots of smiles that are very, very smexy. For example. This.

*Swoons*

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Day Seven: Four turn offs.

1) Smoking

I have had a strong hate of cigarettes ever since I was smart enough to think. They cause diseases to not only the smokers, but also the people around them and harms the planet. It burns your hard-earned money away and gives you stench and yellow teeth. In conclusion, smoking is the biggest turn off for me - even as a close buddy.

2) Ignorance

 Yes, I'm guilty of this sometimes, but that is why I need someone who is not ignorant so that he would educate and lead me to the path of wisdom and awareness. Other than knowledge, ignorance towards others is also a crime! You need to be sensitive towards others' feelings. Do not shove your views down their throats and disregard their arguments and opinions at whim! And please, do not insult and wish badly of the admiration of the other parties in front of them blatantly even if you dislike said object of admiration. (Personal experience)

3) Rudeness and bossiness

As I've said before, I absolutely admire chivalry and courtesy. Be a gentleman, sweetheart. Else gals will flea away from you like you're the plague. Don't boss me around as I too have my integrity and you have no right to control me. And even if you want me to do something for you, use "please" and ask nicely.
Respect others so that you too are respected. 

4) Unkempt self

Alright, I'm not one to judge a person by his or her looks. However, do this for your sake and your health, please. Long nails have germs and you'll suffer from a tummy ache. If you don't wash your face, things will grow. If you don't wash your hair, it will smell so bad that birds will die. Give yourself a warm(or cold, depending on your preference) shower and get your self cleaned. Scrub into all those problem areas, shave (or at lease trim it every now and then). Smelling nice and looking wonderful gives you a bonus, take my word.

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Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

Here are a few of them.. :]

1) An old friend way back from kindergarten

I remember having a few awesome friends back in kindergarten. The most prominent memories I have in kindergarten mainly revolves two girls, and five boys - one of them being him. He was the most likable out of the five guys and was closer to him than the others - in the most sibling-like manner. He was like the brother I never had and acted more less like it. He was a winsome lad and remained untainted until the last time I saw him when we were 10. I remember the last day of school that year - also the last year I went to that school - and he and his mother waved and smiled goodbye at me as I walked past their car on my way home. Yes, I knew his mom - we were THAT close, haha. But the sad part is that I don't even remember his name anymore... :<

2) Fafrina

 As you probably would have noticed from all the mentions of her (and Musheeroom) in a lot of my posts that she has a big role in my life story. We didn't hit off straight away when we met, rather, it came as kind of a surprise to both parties that we'd be this close. She's mainly the only person I could really be myself and/or talk about feminine things (both present and future) and joke with without getting weird stares and forced laughter. Even though we came from different beginnings in the start, I can't imagine not being friends with her the way I am now. *cheesydesuka?*

It's a bit awkward saying this since I know she'll be reading it.. heheh..

3) Musheeroom

 Another bestie from my miniature list of friends. I've been in the same class as her since both of us stepped into this place. This year would be the fifth year. She's the one I have heated and (sometimes)irrational debates with. We argue about the most redundant of redundants (does not make sense, btw). We have different tastes in males, but compliment each others' choices very well. For example, I love Dante, whereas she likes his brother, Duncan; I love Shizuo, while she loves his brother, Kasuka. We will never clash. Unless it's for Zachary Benedict, the hottest man you will ever hope to find in a book. Period.

4) Tok

 She's my paternal grandmother. I love my grandmothers equally. But she stirs more emotions in me and much easier, too. I don't know why - maybe because she looked after me when I was little when my parents had to work. She's old now, older than my maternal grandfather even! I want to spend more time with her.

5) My uncle (whom I thought was a neighbor/cousin)

Don't know why, but he popped into my mind. I guess I don't mind putting him in the list.. See, when I was a kid, we always played together whenever I visited my maternal side of the family in Kelantan. We were like best friends, really. He was older by a year. I found out later when I was older that he was actually my uncle which came into a huge shocker. Since then, I haven't really uttered a single word or made eye contact with the guy. He's grown up now and so have I. We moved on, but the memories were fun. Thnks Fr Th Mmrs!

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Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done

Regret is an awful feeling, huh? Let me think..

1) Leave OZ without saying anything 

One of my biggest lasting regrets that I still have until now. I met some really great people there from all around the world. We matched and understood each other perfectly - mainly because of our similar interests. This was the place where I met the most gentlemanly beings, the most nicest pals, the most interesting fellows, most wonderful people one could ever hope to meet. Most of all, I regret losing all the great friends I made who really cared and favoured me truly.   

 
2) Stop 1000-skips-per-day-thing

If I continued doing it, I might have been able to increase my heart's resistance towards physical activities. Nowadays I get lethargic and restless. Truthfully, exercise does really help freshen one up, it's just that the effort needed to achieve that freshness is just too hard and I'm just too lazy.. ;A;

3) Bought the AFKL tickets

I honestly don't care whether or not this thing was a real event or not. If I hadn't bought it in the first place, I wouldn't have had to worry about this whole thing in the first place.

4) Be such a pushover when I was young

I wish I had the guts to prove my worth. I wish I had a stronger essence in me so that I didn't have to change just because they wanted me to. I wish I had the courage to stand on my own and not succumb to the others. I wish I was a sort of unforgettable person with wits and charm. I wish I left my mark.

5) Save so many pictures on my sister's computer

Now the memory's overloaded. And the computers lagging because of that. =A=

6) Sleep so late a few nights back

If not, my eyes won't have these dark rings around it. :/

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Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1) Blog posts

 I would never have expected me being so dedicated to this blogging thing. Nowadays, random blog posts ideas pop up into my head so often that I'm thinking of making myself an idea book to keep all the ideas organized because it'd be a waste if the golden ideas go to waste thanks to me weak memory span.

2) Plot bunnies

 Sometimes, at the most unsuspecting time ever, a little bunny trots on over to my head like it owns the place and leaves like it's nobody's business. I can never seem to capture them, though. Those bunnies. s(・｀ヘ´・;)ゞ

3) My future

 I worry a lot about what would happen in the near future of mine. It's more dizzying since I can't imagine myself being anything else but a student, and later, a wife and mother. Eugh. My womanly instincts are too strong. Help. 

4) Relationships

 Don't go and get the wrong idea, fellas. By relationships, I mean lots of things - mostly friendships and family ties. Nowadays, I'm becoming more concerned about these two kinds of relationships I have. And the more I think about it, the more I could imagine how it could end. I don't want that. T^T

5) Hetalia and other Fandoms

 At inappropriate times, I remember certain things and that leads me to wanting to crack up during a serious speech or blushing(well, sort of) while solving a maths problems. This happens often during the exams when I finish the papers and there's still some time left. 

6) Problems

 I'm a worrier. I worry a lot, constantly. It doesn't matter if it's a serious one or not, unless I figure out a way to solve it, my mind won't be at peace.

7) My past

This doesn't really need an explanation; it kind of just self-explanatory. I know dwelling in the past is bad, but some of the memories I have are too sweet to not remember. It's a habit, maybe? > 3 >

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Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Oh, just the usual things that only exist in fiction...

1) Be sweet and chivalrous.

One of the things that I hate is rudeness - no one likes it, really. Bad boys may be attractive in movies and fiction, but in real life, nothing wins a girl's heart more than simple acts of chivalry. And this isn't only limited to your object of affection, but try to be genuinely nice to others too - especially towards the elderly, children and animals. Sweet wordings every now and then is very much appreciated, just make sure you mean them!

2) Be my best friend.

I am sort of an eccentric person, zany even! And my mood changes often. You'd need to be able to handle all that and accept it completely. Make me laugh and smile, talk with me, lend me a shoulder to cry and lean on, do me favours - and of course, I'll do the same to you. Those small, seemingly platonic things can do wonders and earn you merits. But of course, being best friends isn't limited to doing things like that... take me and Fafrina, or me and Musheeroom for example! There's a whole lot more that doing favours and laughing together. You need to open up to me as I do to you. Let me help you with your problems and don't push me away. I very much dislike being pushed away... :<

3) Cook with me.

Rather than having one of us cook for the other, I'd like it if we work team up and make a meal to share together. I've always thought of that as an extremely endearing action. And if all else fails, there's always pizza!

4) Be blunt, but tactful.

As I said before, I'm very moody and somewhat sensitive. Knowing how to maneuver me from that state makes life so much more easier for both of us and needs a great deal of strategic planning and tact. Learn how to coax and cajole, but don't use it to your own benefits! And don't beat around the bushes about things either. Just tell it straight to the face - but watch your tone and wording, since females tend to notice those more than what you're actually saying. Mostly. Hehe. 

5) Care for your loved ones.

 Nothing softens the heart of gals more than the thought that their man is one who is caring and loving. Take care of your family. Even if the only bonds you share is the blood flowing in your veins, try to be on good terms with them. Family is very important in life, remember that. Also, this shows that you are a home-bound person which is a very essential quality in the long run.

6) Make me something.

Buying my love won't do you any good; you got to earn it! What better way to show your feelings than to make something with your own two hands. It doesn't matter what it is - a homemade meal, a handwritten letter, an original(or parody) song, a picture you drew, anything. It warms one's heart to know that another cares enough to make something for them.

7) Be intelligent and playful.

Sarcasm is one of my non-existent middle names, you know? You need the wit and smarts to counter them. I just love having small, harmless banters and debates with just about anyone really - but the one who really only does this is mainly Musheeroom. And I want someone who I can have a decent intellectual conversation with - not to say that I'm all that smart, but when you're with someone with wits and knowledge, it tends to rub off onto you and that's what I'm hoping for.

In this boring reality, I'd like to goof around and enjoy life, and although I'm a bit stiff and take things waaay too seriously, I have my moments of rebellion and adventure. Helping me loosen up and have fun gives you lots of points. 

8) And lastly, be yourself.

Of all the things I hate most is deceit and pretentiousness. I always think that everyone has uniqueness in them and it would be a waste if they threw it away. Accept yourself then, and only then, can someone else genuinely accept you. Plus, I like it when people are comfortable enough around me to be able to show who they really are on the inside. It makes me feel special. （。-＿-。）

I know that a lot of the above is practically extinct in real life, but hey, a girl can dream.


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Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

These nine things are chosed thanks to here.

1) Weaknesses:

I'd say that my biggest weakness is distrusting my intuition and believing others all too easily. My intuition is often right, but for some reason, I doubt it more than the words of people around me. I guess I'm a bit easily influenced?

2) Hobbies:

I enjoy writing and immersing myself in fiction. By writing, I mean blogging. I haven't found the guts to actually finish an actual piece of writing. And by fiction, I mean of any form - books, movies, manga, anime, music(lyrics). It provides an excellent doorway to release me from the tensions of reality.

3) Good habits:

I make sure my grammar and spelling are correct - is that a good habit? >_>
Oh, and I have this obsession with having everything shut down when not in use or is not necessary to use. I hate wasting.

4) Bad habits:

Oh, I have plenty. I don't make my bed when I wake up, I don't put my books back on the shelf and just leave them on my study table -which is why it's always cluttered. I tend to like to dwell on the past - that's a bad habit, right? The list goes on forever, really...

5) Strengths:

My bearings! I have a real good sense of direction, honest! It's one of the few things that I'm proud of.

6) Cons in knowing me:

If I'm a close enough friend of yours, I'll bug you with one hell of a lot of questions. It's another bad habit of mine, I guess - having too much curiosity.

7) Pros in knowing me:

I provide excellent company - or at least, I try to. When you have a problem, I'll be happy to be there for you, lend you a shoulder and help you solve your problem. I'll be loyal as long as you don't betray me.

8) Wishes:

My only strong wish and desire of mine that I've had since I entered high school is to have a family of my own. I mean, children and a husband. Yes, I know I'm young, but for some reason, I have a strangely feminine instinct in this aspect. I won't be searching for romance now, though. :P

9) Pet peeves:

The thing that I most dislike in the world, is a smug face of arrogance. Period.

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Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

Hm. Wait, lemme think...


1) My grandmother (fraternal side):

I'd just like to say to her that I love her and miss her a lot. Last time I went and visited her, it was really fun. I wanted to call her a few days after that, but I felt too shy to do so. I miss the olden days where I could show my affection with ease.

2) A-chan (an old friend from OtakuZone):

I want to say to her that it was really nice to have met you and that I'm sorry for my sudden disappearance from the site. I want you to know that it was a pleasure to have been friends with you and that may our awesome army reign supreme! And by the way, how's Joe doing? xD

3) My only male cousin of the same age:

To him, I'd probably say something about his vast changes during puberty. I still can't believe how his voice sounds like. It seems like just yesterday we were playing together in each others' front porch, and having arguments on how Ultraman is pronounced. I miss those days and feel a bit melancholic each time I see a picture of all of us back in the day.

4) A friend of mine when I was 10:

If I had the chance to talk to her, I'd probably keep quiet about this... I'd say that I appreciate your friendship while it lasted and I'm sorry that I didn't turn out to be the girl cool enough to be your friend. It would have been better if you had told me straight to the face how you felt, and not stab me behind the back when I'm not looking. All in all, it was great having you beside me during the short time that we were friends.  

5) My old neighbour who moved to another state:

I'd mention to her how much fun it was going to her house and played together as we did when she was here. I'd thank her for all the precious moments we shared, and for sticking by me even when I knew I was a bit... off? It was really unfortunate to have you move.. each time I pass your empty ex-house, I get reminded of our times together which I'll treasure always.

6) The person who planned our History Folio project:

I'd like to say to you, mister, that you have chosen the wrong topic. I'd like him(or her) to know that the project is too hard and virtually impossible for most kids. Have you not have any idea how we are? We are kids, and the people we need to meet are most likely against the idea of wasting their time on our flippy-dippy interviews.

7) Another old friend who left when I was 9:

If I were the same person I was a few years ago, I'd have raged about how you left without telling me anything and about you not keeping our promises. But now that I'm older - therefor, wiser?- I feel like laughing. Our claims on how we'd go to the same school and work at the same places and how we would sacrifice everything in order to make that happen were all too outrages that I could burst into a fit of giggles right this moment. You were a real great friend. Even though you went away, abandoning me and our 3-year friendship without word, I forgive you. But you still owe me RM3!

8) Amonderevex:

To Amon, I want to thank a million thanks for all the things you've done to us utattemita fans. You had posted videos of great quality and allowed us to enjoy the pleasure of listening to our favourite singers with such an easy click of a button. It was great having you around. You deserve the tittle as one of the best YouTuber in my heart. Good luck in your life and I wish you your success. :)

9) Dante (PDSKabushikiGaisha):

Dante!! Why did you bleach your hair?! T^T
I loved your regular brown hair that fits you perfectly... And it's not so much that I'm displeased by your now blond hair, it's just that you bleached your eyebrows (eye hair xD) too! Now you look like you have no eyebrows! *^*
But even with all that, I still love you and respect your decision... BUT WHY?!

10) My neighbour who lives two doors away from mine:

To you, I'd ask how much you know. I mean, I know you know about what I knew you knew ever since 2 years back. I'm still suspicious whether or not you have told people or not and why. Also, I know you know a whole lot about me and my habits (singing in the shower and fangirling - squeals and extreme giggling) and I'd appreciate if you didn't pay attention to those. And another thing, please refrain from bringing your friends to your house. It makes me feel awkward when I have to leave the house and restricts me from fangirling and/or singing aloud.  

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I Feel Bland.

Today was a real fun day. But for some reason, I'm feeling as if I've fallen in an abyss of apathy. I don't want to talk or think, my appetite is lost and I don't know what I want to do. My head is blank and I feel absobloodylutely terrible. 

Usually in times like this, I'll take a warm bath and take some time to recollect and soothe my nerves. Unfortunately, it turns out that the water supply is out so we need to be extra careful and use as little as we can. 

So to get my mind out of this, I'd like to just answer some questions I found on tumblr. It's actually a 10-day meme thing, but whatever. I don't really care to follow rules anymore. 

Here are the questions found from here:

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

Each time I finish one, I'll link it. Might not be able to do it ten days straight, though. *shrugs*

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