May is ending.

Duuh.

It's irking me. IRKING ME.

Everything is irking me.

 IRKING ME!

The exams are irking me, my room is irking me, my sister is irking me, I am irking me, THIS FONT IS IRKING ME.

Okay. Better.

I am feeling so very irritated at the moment, so stuffy too. I was fine mere minutes ago, all snuggled up in my comforting striped duvet, ready to study science for my exams tomorrow. But now. Now I am irked. I have been irked. I still am irked.

P.s. I love this word. Hahahahahaha ._.

I need another cold shower. 

Yesterday, when I was irked -more irked than today- I took a cold shower and went to bed. The next morning, my heart was cooled. I want to do that, but if I sleep, then when will I study? OR maybe you could study now instead of updating yer stupid blog. 

See? Now I am irking myself! My irked self is irking me. HEEEEELP.

My room is so stuffy at the moment, thanks to everything being moved into it because there are guests in the house - Tok Nyeh, my grandma, grandfather and my youngest aunt.

I like having them here, I really really do. HOWEVER. Why is my room the victim of all this junk! >A<

I have one more week to go before the exams are over and done. Until then, I don't want to see myself touch this computer. EVER. Lol, but there are other computers in the house.

I'm planning on devoting all my time to reading textbooks and reference books and making audio tapes out of them, then listening to them as I do other stuffs. Then complete every single one of the exercise books in the nearest bookshop. 

THEN. Once my PMR is over, I. Will. Do. EVERYTHING.

Oh look. I made this.

Click to enlarge.

 Sheesh. Mr. Narrator is so edgy. = 3 =


I shall flee now. Farewell, my lovelies.

Bai.

[end]

 

Hachimitsu to Kuroba

Also known as Honey and Clover.


I finished it. I finished watching Honey and Clover | and ||.

 
 Now I don't have anything to look forward to. 

(Source: Link to the most awesome site of awesome)



I don't want to do anything anymore.

Let me write about this later.

Bye.

 end
 

What the hell am I doing again?

Folks, let me tell you a tale about a girl.

Now, this girl, she is a fairly ordinary teen - average height, average weight, average looks, average brains, average manners, average family, average skills, average social abilities. She is so average that if she were to have a middle name, then there would be a very high possibility for her middle name to be, Average. 

While Ms. Average here might have average brains, she does not like to sharpen it with things that she is supposed to. For example, if in school she needs to know of when the Brits  lost to the Japs in the Malayan land, instead, she prefers spending her time learning about the parts of the brain and what does it do, and also origami techniques. She prefers to read and write a language that is not even her own, despite having her tongue absolutely hating said language and strongly preferring its native language.

One thing that might as well be labelled as the death of her is her most beloved activity - blogging.

Her love for blogging conquers her and her entire being. It invades her brain and seizes her mind. Her mind then coaxes and cajoles her with different sort of engaging and interesting ideas until she is forced to yield and surrender.

This girl is in dire need of rescue from the clutches of evil procrastination. She needs to be rid of the haunting need to write, be it her thoughts or pieces of works.

I mean it's not like their any good anyways. /shots.

She has a deadline. A time limit. Before the clock strikes, she must save herself.

Else, her future, her present, everything. 

Will be destroyed and detonated. 

Shredded and severed.

Collapsed and crushed.

Buried and burnt.

What she needs to do is not easy.

It is very challenging and acquires help from the people around her. Help she is not sure she could obtain.

What she needs to do, 

Is study.

Like, now.

Or else, she'll fail her PMR.

BUT I DON'T WANT TO! TAT

[END] 

 

April's ending!

Sigh, it's been a full week since I've written anything. I afraid my blogging skills might rust at this pace.. -.-

This week was full of sporting events and plenty of other activities for me. 

We had our road-run practice on Wednesday and yesterday was the real deal. I didn't run, though. But what I DID do was help out at my club's stand. We sold two types of drinks (Ocean Blue - which was basically a mix of asam boi, lemons, and blue food colouring - and another drink which contained soya, bandung and cincau), keropok lekor and popias.

I think Ocean Blue was the culprit to what made my stomach so sick today. =A=

But! All went well yesterday. We sold everything! Including the 4 batches of our blue concoction. I got to play with this cute little boy while chilling around and selling things with a classmate and my clubmate. The fact that I didn't have to run a total of 5 kilometers was just a bonus. 

Got into a fight with Musheeroom... which would be considered normal.. but not this time. 
It's just that, I know I was wrong - and I admitted it! But she was screaming in my face, and I was confused and mad because of that, so I screamed at her, too, in the midst of the rainfall and crowd bustling for shelter. I don't handle things well when anyone yells or raises their voices with me. It's my weakness - unfortunately.

Now I'm tired emotionally and physically; emotionally, because of familial problems and because I was bothered by the fight with Musheeroom and a way to say "I'm sorry" without seeming stiff or awkward. Because I know that what I did was stupid, but at the same time, I feel somewhat a mixture of angering grief that she had to be so rough about it. I'm sorry, dammit!!

Huuh... whatever. Oh, and physically since I spent the entire day making triangle bases for the 3D origami piece that I'm working on. Planning on having it as part of the gubahan project that was subjected by my new uniformed units.

Ah, which reminds me! I dropped out of the fire brigade because I was so sick and tired of the drills we had to practice at EVERY SINGLE MEET and the fact that there was no other engaging activities other than burn in the sunlight.

But that's not the best part yet.

Even though I quit the brigade because I hate the drills, I joined my sport's team's marching team. WHAT.

From my last experience with the school's marching team - which I had acquired during my first year of high school - it's not very different from the drills I learn while in the fire brigade. So, why?!

Oh, and did I mention the fire brigade teacher is also the teacher for my sport's team, too?

Speaking of sports, the winner of the road run was team Jupiter - which is represented by the colour green.

Mars - Red. Mercury - Yellow. And finally, mine: Earth - Blue.

The few things that I like about being in the blue team is that the shirt is slimming. And I don't have to wear a singlet - unlike members of the Yellow team, aka, Fafrina. Muhaha.


Tomorrow's a school day. I haven't been to school for lessons since Wednesday.

 Didn't attend on Thurday because I had to help my mother translate her part of the apple product called Siri.. or something? Meh, I don't know. 

Spent the entire day, from the peak of dawn to near Midnight sitting in front of the computer screen, typing away like a zombie slave.

And then I convinced my mother I was in dire need of rest on Friday which resulted to my absence. Ehe.

Later that Friday, I went for a visit to the TTDI pasar malam with Fafrina, Musheeroom and a classmate of mine and her brother. We had a surprisingly great time. SURPRISINGLY. Fafrina gave me lots of food.. heheh. ( =w= )

Anyways, I'm off to complete the swan origami piece. And make something for my fungian-nicknamed friend. And do something about my stomach problems. And finish reading a piece of writing by a classmate of mine. And sleep. And hope that I will live another day tomorrow. And bye-bye.

[END]

  

Who broke the iPad?

This week ended in fair bliss. 

E----xcept for the fact that I got an injection, was forced to run a whole field in a long skirt, lost my pencil case and found out that the iPad was broken.

But other than that, it's all fine and dandy.

AFKL - a hoax?

2 weeks ago, I received a package. In it, was the Anime Fiesta Kuala Lumpur tickets that I accidentally bought during my moment of ignorance in February. Each order is placed inside their own respective envelopes. In each envelope, there are these:

There is just one ticket in each envelope, but in the picture above, I placed another ticket beside it to show you the backside of the card. As you can see, in an evelope, you'll receive a ticket -duh- a business card and that thing that you wear on your neck. (Sorry, I don't remember what it's called. >_>)

Anyways, my mother and I went to KLCC on Tuesday and she asked the counter about whether or not this thing actually exists. The person called someone - probably the higher ups - and asked them about the situation to which they confirmed the issue. 

Honestly, I don't know what to believe anymore. There's people supporting the idea with their lives, and then there's people denying the whole thing. Of course, I know that it doesn't really matter anymore since the tickets are already bought, but I'd like some clearing up around here. 

All I could say now is just that I shouldn't get my hopes up on anything. I don't want to stress on this, I just want to see what happens. Let it all play out on its own. 

Also, if you're interested, here's a close up on the business card I got. Dunno if that helps with anything, but yeah..

[end]

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1) Blog posts

 I would never have expected me being so dedicated to this blogging thing. Nowadays, random blog posts ideas pop up into my head so often that I'm thinking of making myself an idea book to keep all the ideas organized because it'd be a waste if the golden ideas go to waste thanks to me weak memory span.

2) Plot bunnies

 Sometimes, at the most unsuspecting time ever, a little bunny trots on over to my head like it owns the place and leaves like it's nobody's business. I can never seem to capture them, though. Those bunnies. s(・｀ヘ´・;)ゞ

3) My future

 I worry a lot about what would happen in the near future of mine. It's more dizzying since I can't imagine myself being anything else but a student, and later, a wife and mother. Eugh. My womanly instincts are too strong. Help. 

4) Relationships

 Don't go and get the wrong idea, fellas. By relationships, I mean lots of things - mostly friendships and family ties. Nowadays, I'm becoming more concerned about these two kinds of relationships I have. And the more I think about it, the more I could imagine how it could end. I don't want that. T^T

5) Hetalia and other Fandoms

 At inappropriate times, I remember certain things and that leads me to wanting to crack up during a serious speech or blushing(well, sort of) while solving a maths problems. This happens often during the exams when I finish the papers and there's still some time left. 

6) Problems

 I'm a worrier. I worry a lot, constantly. It doesn't matter if it's a serious one or not, unless I figure out a way to solve it, my mind won't be at peace.

7) My past

This doesn't really need an explanation; it kind of just self-explanatory. I know dwelling in the past is bad, but some of the memories I have are too sweet to not remember. It's a habit, maybe? > 3 >

[end]

March Test is finished. Yay!

Finished the last of all the papers liek 5 hours ago. Woot!

When I got home, there was no lunch and so I made a whole batch of french toast. 

Lol, I kid... XD

 (Link: Source)

Ate a bit too much of them so I didn't eat lunch. 

Then after that, I spent some time on YouTube since I was in no condition to read Perfect, Judith McNaught's novel. My head feels so heavy. This sickness. IS SHET.

I'm off to take a nap. Tata?

[End]

Studying...

It's so hard..! That's what she said

Okay, ew. Hahah. = =;

Ehm, yesterday was a lazy day. I finished reading Until You, a novel by Judith McNaught, aka, Fafrina and my mother's favourite author. Then I proceeded to lie down and do virtually nothing. 

Later the afternoon, I got bored and convinced myself to let me post something with the excuse that I'm studying English for Wednesday's exam. So, for the rest of the day, I jumped from site to site as I "studied" English.

Part 4 will be out... sometime soon, I hope. Dealing with a lot of activities these days, so blogging will be limited. *shrugs*

The good news is that after my exams - which end by Friday, by the way - finish, it's school holidays for me! Yay! One whole week of pure nothingness.

And yet, I still have to study because of the PMR exam I'm taking this year. Oh, the joy.

Most probably, I won't be doing anything remotely close to fangirling activities. But c'est la vie.

Egad! It's 3PM! Where did the time go! 0A0
I must leave. Farewell~ 

[end]

Tomorrow's my exam.

Click to play

Oh, shit.

[end]

Leap Day!

Today is a special day - it's a LEAP DAY!

Every four years, in the month of February, there will be a 29th. And that, is today!

As embarrassing as it may be, I admit that I didn't even remember the date was today until Musheeroom told me. I know it's nothing special, but for some reason, I felt the hype.
┐(  ^ 3^)┌

So I was planning on maybe doing something as a sort of celebration for this rare date. But, thanks to this extreme migraine that struck me since school this morning, my head can barely think straight.

All I could do was a short piece of ...thing..? that might be considered as a doodle in the form of words. It's simple and I hope the content can be grasped without much thinking. 

I imagine a guy being the male character, but it's up to you how you perceive it.  


Anyways, my nausea's getting worse. I'll post a bit more on what's happening in a few days maybe... = =

I'm heading to bed. Oyasumi.

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English is so Hard!

Today, there was an English oral test at my school. I've always hated oral tests - scratch that, I've always disliked speaking in English in front of people. My tongue only favours its native language. I have a stupid accent and sound like an idiot when speaking in English. Hell, I sound better when speaking German! ... even though I've never learnt it.

Verdammt! Ich habe sauerkraut in meine lederhosen!

Yeah, I said that without Google Translate! Booyah! That's what Hetalia fan products gives you - the power to talk weirdly in different languages.

I spoke of my first trip overseas, a.k.a the trip to Viet Nam. My friends were all:

Meanwhile, there I was at the front feeling like so:

Spoke in very broken English, my grammar was all over the place, my eyes were going out of focus. I didn't even tell my story properly either. When I compared to the rest of the class, their English was incredibly fluent and they delivered their message very clearly. 

Arghh! I feel like dust now. 

-eND-

Amonderevex, where are you?!

Amonderevex is one of my most favoured youtuber there is. But I just found out today that she closed her account. Why?! (((( ;°Д°))))

She was the one who posted them videos of the Nico Nico singers on YouTube along with all the links and DLs. Her videos were all HD and tagged very accurately so that it would be easy to search for them later.

I don't understand why she would just go away like that. She did say that a person was bugging her with messages and that's why she made her page unvisible (?) but her videos were still watchable. 

She was the best Nico Nico videos uploader on YouTube. It's so sad to have her disappear like this. I enjoyed the whole time I was subscribed to her as she provided me with access to wondrous videos. Each time a video was uploaded by her, I would be tickled pink with delight and glee. 

Sometimes, her videos would lead me to discover new singers with amazing talent and an incredible voice. And other times, she would upload the videos from singers that I know and love dearly. If not for her, I wouldn't have been able to know whether or not my favourite singers had covered a new song. 

I discovered KanzentaiCell and Tamu thanks to her - singers that I am such a huge fan of now. She made me like female singers such as Wotamin and Vip and 96Neko. 

It's a sad day today as now us subscribers of Amonderevex will have lost a very much loved youtuber. I still have hopes in me that she will come back - even though the chances are least likely. Amonderevex, we'll miss you. 。ﾟ(ﾟﾉД｀ﾟ)ﾟ｡

-End-

More activities, more fun...?

Well, today in school, we learned nothing. Nada, hull, zero.

So, sometime after recess, I met two of my classmates who were in the Gamelan-playing squad(?). They're playing for the school's award ceremony but... the problem is, several students are going to receive the awards, so they were short on players. I volunteered to be a substitute, but I'm only playing until the guys receive their awards and come back.

I also joined the editing team for the school's year book. He (classmate) said they needed a fast-typer... guess who's gonna be the typer?  *nudge nudge*

All those years of typing, finally put to good use! Wahaha!

Today's koko was really fun. Yeah, we had to train in the middle of the Sun, but sometimes it was windy so it was alright - at least the light rain during the first hour cooled our area a bit. 

We had to do some pumping and jumping jacks (the 1-2-1, 1-2-2, 1-2-3, 1-2-4..etc.. kind which means that one is equal to three jumps. I can not pump. At all. I have never been able to and probably never will. = =

I won the BOTOL game! WHAHAHAHA!

First I won with my group, then with the finals of the other groups. I feel so proud *cries*

There's also the school's counseling prefect thing that I'm not sure what to call. It's a good way for me to earn marks for my koko, but I'm not sure if I could take up the responsibility. I mean, if I can't do it right, I might as well not do it at all. I wanted to give being a librarian another shot, but Fafrina-chan's really against it - for some reason. WHY?! T^T

It's not that I really wanted to be one, just that the way you make it seem like it would be the end of the world as we know it if I joined so I'm curious. And the sadist inside of me just wants to try and apply for the librarian thing just to go against you. 

Forgive me, I'm a bad person... = =;

I grant you permission to smack me in the face if I go beyond the limits of your tolerance. 
m( _  _ )m

And with all that's going around me - exams, oral test on Friday and still no topic, homework that is still uncompleted, a bedroom the condition of a natural disaster - I still haven't finished my debate homework. FRUK!

-END-  

 

Busy, busy, busy.

Out of all these years, I think this year is one of the most - if not the most - busiest years I've ever gone through. Never imagined Form 3 to be this overwhelming.

I joined the debate club and the recycling comity, I'm trying to write a story for a competition, there's the English oral test coming up, exams are also coming up(-ish), I haven't finished my wood project, my room is a mess, there are no clean clothes because the washing machine broke down.

And there's so many posts that I'm working on. @A@
Please wait patiently for me to sort out things before I can post regularly. Oh, I wish time would pause for a few days. = =;


[End]

T_T

I told my mother about the scam. She took it well - surprisingly. While I, didn't. 

The guilt I felt was overwhelming. The fact that I made my mother lose such an amount of money. Money that could be used to fund her and the family's living expenses. 

She was mellow about it. But I felt that I deserved something as punishment. So, my subconscious self sabotaged me, torturing me and my thoughts and made me suffer. Nah, I'm just being dramatic. Basically, I just strangled myself with words like "YOU'RE AN IDIOT".

She said that we'll have to report to the minister of something something.

And all I said was Okay.

This scam thing is the worst thing anyone ever did to me. I'm soft! I'll believe most things you say. So don't lie to me! \( > A < )/

I don't have an appetite, my stomach feels so sick, my heart feels as if it's chained to a 50kg weight. I can't do much anymore and I keep getting stuck in a daze. 


Tasukete... （ｉ^ｉ）

 -End-

Down in the Dumps...

Moped around all day today - well mostly. I'm just so bummed out about the scam I've fallen for. The disappointment is more than my heart could take. 

And the worse part is that it wasn't my money that got robbed but my mother's. I would've mind less if I was the only one involved. But tricking me and my mother? Crushing the hopes of a kid? That's just crossing the line. How heartless can you get?

Allow me to be dramatic for this post, please. That's the only way I'll get by. =_=

I don't know what to do anymore. Even KanzentaiCell's cover of Tsukema Tsukeru wasn't enough to lift my spirits up. Neither did Na-chan from UtaPri. I couldn't even move on to watching the second ep of the series. +_+


Usually when my heart is burdened, I lie down on a bed - any bed - and cover my head with a pillow. Then, I'll drift into sleep. It may take two hours, it may take 15 minutes... but when I wake up, I'll have to face my troubles head on. And if I feel as if I'm not ready, I would always lie back down and close my eyes.. and just escape everything.


The thing that frustrates me more than actually being scammed is that I actually suspected something. I knew something was up. But I denied my senses. I refused to believe in my intuition. I guess a woman(?)'s intuition is never wrong afterall - and this is what I get for doubting that.


I guess I'm just being tested. C'est la vie, I guess?


-End-

AFKL SCAM.

AFKL - Anime Fiesta Kuala Lumpur. The biggest piece of BS I have ever heard of.

AND YET I STILL FALL FOR IT. GARRGGGHH! (╯`Д´）╯︵ ┻━┻


My mother bought me three of the Superpass-es as thanks for helping her transcribe her audio file thingy. Cost her RM158 in total (plus the shipping fees).

I was so excited. My heart was fluttering, and my eyes were sparkling for three days straight. But for some reason... something didn't feel quite right.


Now, from the beginning, I had suspicious feelings towards this event. With it's outrageous claims about bringing Hatsune Miku and whatnot, it didn't seem very realistic... However, I brushed the suspicions away.

I was never interested in the Miku concert because although I am a vocaloid fan, I'm not very much into concerts. That's why I didn't pay attention to the ticket prices for the concert. The only thing I did pay attention to was to the Superpass.



What attracted me to the event was the fact that they were using 4 halls at the Kuala Lumpur Convention Center (KLCC). That made me very much excited, because I went to last year's Comic Fiesta which had 2 halls. Imagine what it would be like with double of that?! 

And so, I was blinded by their false claim.


I believed. I hoped and held faith. But now... my dreams... everything...crushed.

Fck you, scammers. FCK YOU. 凸(｀⌒´メ)凸


For more information about the scam thing, here are a few sites:

• http://www.facebook.com/pages/Anime-Fiesta-KL-Unlimited-Scam-Works/321319794568194#!/pages/Anime-Fiesta-KL-Unlimited-Scam-Works/321319794568194?sk=wall&filter=1
• http://geminianeyes.com/?p=7023
• http://typicalstorm.com/2012/01/scams-of-animefiesta-kuala-lumpur-2012/
• http://sgcafe.com/2012/01/scams-of-animefiesta-kuala-lumpur-2012/
• http://forums.comicfiesta.org/showthread.php?tid=8285
• http://wilsonxmct.blogspot.com/2012/01/stay-alert-of-animefiesta-kuala-lumpur.html

 
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A problem...

There's been a few glitches on my blog, so I'm shutting it down for a bit. 
Sorry for the trouble. m(_  _)m

In the mean time, I present you with a manga to read:


Anagle Mole


I'll be back ASAP. +_+

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